Splashing under the rain

I’m sore at my both arms, due to lack of triceps usage.

I bet my hands will be too heavy to be lifted up tomorrow.
Best buoyancy work out with soothing acoustic music playing in the swimming pool. I lack the same capacity than the last in holding my breath underwater.

My friends and i thinks that we should make Wednesday a Water Baby’s Day   Sounds good!!

So AGM and AGD is done. I’m glad! I’ll be slowly disappearing from the scene.
Holding a post helped me a lot.
I learn patience, dealing with difficult people, think objectively not subjectively, putting others first at times.
Will i want to do it again? Maybe, but i got other pressing matters to attend now.

Reading for signs

Do you ever do that?

I for one, will not do so. Putting bits of rational reasoning to make a decision, yes, i’ve done that. But to read for signs from the sky or a situation i’ve not, until recently.

Next year, very soon next year i’ll be spending most of my time in the teaching hospital. I was offered a quaint house to rent and i really like it. The pricing of the house is cheap since the whole house is refurnish, all i have to do is check my self with my luggage in. There was only one prob… i can’t bring the whole crew with me.
Finally after weeks of consideration, for the first time, i appreciated the final decision made by my parents when i told them about the place. It was a NO if i were to move in alone.
A few days ago, i got to know that, that place is easily flooded when monsoon comes.

Loud and clear was the answer to me now.

Being Realistic

Jea: CYF has been relentlessly mentioning on the big R word.
Deprive: …. uhhh… Do i have to get a loan now?

Lilac

I’ve forgotten i bought a cute lilac dress
but i’m afraid i got not enough mass to fill in )”

December love

I get mails no more
guess everyone is busy, so am i. Sometimes i wonder where time went to.
Will be anticipating December! Come come!

3 weeks of Public Health field work! It’s good that, i’m putting good use of what i’m learning, but then again my so many weekends have been wasted! I wish i had more time!! I wish a lot of other stuff too, like being a better communicator so that i can analyse other better.

I’m still considering whether to move out, i’ll miss miss miss them

I’m not sure which siblings in my family really gung-ho into maths! Definitely not me!! I don’t know why… i just freak out seeing big sums of number! I’m good at keeping money but not starring at figures! Not all Chinks love maths… well i’m one of them, i rather someone give me History or Geography to read! Delightfully i’ll do it, and i’ll narrate the topics like a fairy-tale for you to enjoy!

bahh~ maths~ ! I had to do some accounting work, which made me turn jittery! I hated accounts ever since it was introduce in ‘Living Skills’= Kemahiran Hidup. I go bleh~
THank God for Yam and Machinery money counting Kav

So i’m done with the accounts, i’ve been revising the whole thing over and over. There’s certain matters that i do that i tend to brood over it, this should be count as one of those. Tomorrow, i should need to present those figures, and tomorrow will me the mark that i should be stepping down from a post in the Malaysian Society. Tomorrow, is the day for Annual Grand Meeting and Annual Grand Dinner. Which both i do not even want to attend. For now, i want to be in my own bubble for a few days. It’s Regression of age vs persoanl

I’m already missing…

you, you ,you , and you; albeit the reality has not happen yet.

Attachment Attachment

Stupid Feeling… I’m already missing you, you,you, and you; so will you, you,you,you, and you miss me.
Going to have to stand on these two feet firmer and steadier than before, because when i do leave, i’m going to miss you all sore.

I’ll be missing US most of all.

Grieve

When in grief, grieve with the grieving. -VC

Already grieving is so hard, it’s easier to do it together.

The burial was at 10am this morning, later today after Mahgrib there will be a talil for her at the campus surau, Yasin prayers will be said and sholat ghaib will be done.

All seem normal the night before, she text-ed one of her closest friends about settling her visa. The next morning she was hospitalize, she was suppose to get her dialysis but her body couldn’t take it later that day.

Almost dying changes nothing.
Dying changes everything. - House MD

Arriving at the exam hall today everything seem the usual. After that, the hall turned sombre and solemn, her housemates fell apart, one after the other wept silent tears.
Heart-wrenching…
In situations like this handing a kleenex, exchanging condolences and saying prayers are the only all that can be done, but it feels like more needs to be done… but is there anything else?

When words are not enough you give hugs, when hugs are not enough, you give?

The mourning shall pass…

(… for she is in a better place)

 

p/s: this is good read on passing on on ‘How to cope with death’, ::

Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilahi Raaji’oon

 

 

the little green boy

I saw a boy

oh so cute

like a little leprechaun dressed in green pants and lime colour shirt

I saw a boy

oh so cute

chubby and robust

I saw a boy

oh so cute

with dirty blond curled locks

I saw a boy

oh so cute!

Full of joy and wonders in his eyes

I saw a boy

oh so cute

he bounces when he walks

I saw a boy

oh so cute

that i wanted to touch

I saw a boy

oh so cute

but it was only for a tad 2 minutes

and he left me googoo-gaga-ing for the rest of the night.

If it wasn’t for the Satpam who was holding the traffic, i would have just stood there and watch that adorable thing until he disappear from my view. If it wasn’t for Akka who was holding me back, i would have gone over and molested the cheeks of that oh so ‘geram-cute’ looking thing!! Niaaaaa!!!!

UberCUTE!!! Too bad i don’t have pics to back up what i saw!